May 26, 2007

• Willing to wait, and willing to die trying!

  
  

  You know, on these late nights when I just can't seem to sleep, there always comes to mind those things on which I would like to think about during the day, but I can never fit in! Tonight is by no means an exception! As I was laying there, the Lord and I started a conversation. Ok, in reality, I started the conversation and began pestering HIm with lots of my unanswered questions!

  
  

  What is my future? Where do you want me? What am I to accomplish?

  
  

  I of course went down the list from there and ended up whining for a while

  
  

  It all boiled down to me wanting things, and the Lord saying, WAIT. Ok, that's cool, I can wait...but what am I waiting for? What's really the point of waiting for the unknown?

  
  

  I have a fulfilled life, a wonderful and loving family, friends that stand by me no matter how weird I get,and an overall, amazing and wonderful God that supplies for my EVERY need. What more can a girl ask for? But yet I find things! In the long run, I don't mind waiting for them! I have learned that life doesn't always come to you when you want it, and thereby I have learned to simply, WAIT:) I have also learned it's a joy to wait on the Lord and watch as He one by one fulfills your every need, and alot of the time, your every want. What a sweet thing to behold! What a mighty God we serve!

  
  

  I always was aggravated with guys, when I had the inside scoop that they liked someone, but wouldn't say a word till they had all their ducks in a row! WHY? If she's the right one, wouldn't she like to be apart of building you up? Of dreaming beside you? Of praying for you and helping you to become what you are striving for?

  
  

  And yet, I also find that the Lord is the same way! Men are soooooo aggravating:) They have this thing called logic, that I was never very fond of, being a hopeless romantic.... In their eyes, the joy of being able to present their gift of a home, or a job and a steady income, or a secure future is more valuable to them than simply saying I love you and wanna be with you. The overall scene of being able to say I worked for you and now I would like to claim you as mine is a stronger thing to alot of guys. They want it in their hands when they finally have it to give.

  
  

  In the same way, our Lord has designed our lives to be a surprise! He has made it so there is no way of finding out what comes next! The Lord is also a hopeless romantic and He loves to surprise His bride! He has worked sooo hard for us! To be able to bring us home to be with Him forever! He was willing to give of Himself in the form of His son just to be with us forever! What kind of love is that? DO you comprehend the power of that?

  
  

  Just as the girl who will soon be surprised should not be caught being unawares, so should we be ready for the Lord when He is ready for us! The joy of being able to look at your masters face and state, Lord I want you and have been striving to build up your name! I have waited for you and can't wait to sing praises to Your Holy name! I have worked here on earth to broaden your kingdom, and now Lord I am ready to go there with you!

  
  

  I have looked at my parents and said I am ready to move on. To start life in a new realm. To begin another family for the Lords glory when He's ready for me to! I want His will in my life!

  
  

  But, can I look at Him and say Lord I am ready to come home? I have done all for Your name?

  
  

  I am willing to wait here and strengthen your kindom. And Lord, I am willing to die trying!

  
  

  If we are willing to die for our country to keep her free, shouldn't we be willing to give all to our creator?

  
  

  Just some food for thought from the late night philosopher.

  
  

  Yours always,

  
  

  Jess

  
  

   

  
  

   

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